As a visionary I would like to share my vision to you. I am Jony Baroi. a university student. I hope and believe that by reading this article you will have a clear understanding of my vision. I have known and heard from the Bible and I personally believe that vision comes from God. As we see from the Holy Bible, Joel 2:28 says, “Then I will pour out my spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will speak the word of God as prophets; your old men will dream dreams and your young men will see visions”. In the same way I would say as a young man God gave me a great vision.

Although at first I did not give much importance or response to this vision. But later on God gradually helped me to understand this vision. What is this vision? From this vision I could see and understand that hundreds of suicidal, frustrated, depressed youths, teenagers and children in Bangladesh who have lost hope in life, who are lonely, rejected, weak, degraded, traumatized, Suffering from mental and physical depression, victims of various situations, unable to make right decisions, involved in various evil deeds and various problems, imprisoned in the darkness of sin and they do not know the true God, they are all looking for a place where a good faithful friend can be found. They should be able to tell them about their depression and sadness and their problems. That friend can listen to their issues and give proper advice and pray for them. Yes they are looking for a trusted friend and mentor. I go to God on this matter and I say to God, Lord, do you really want me to respond to this vision and act on this matter and obey you. God told me yes, I have chosen you for this work.

Since then many questions, thoughts, curiosity and many things started coming in my mind. I was also scared because I had no idea, enough knowledge, education or training in this matter. I am not a psychiatrist or psychologist or doctor. So while thinking about these things, I myself became frustrated and could not take any right decision. Many questions started coming in my head and mind, what will happen to me by doing this? What is my profit or benefit by doing this? Will it make me money? Many things were going on in my head and in my mind, whether doing this would increase my honor. Many may or may not say, how I got this vision. Did I get sleepy from inside the dream? Or God or an angel came in front of me and told me this? Or whether I was inspired by someone’s words, etc., etc. Actually they are nothing.

 I got this vision through realization and prayer in my life. This time I would like to share to you the self testimony of my life. Then it will be easier for you to fully understand my vision. To be honest, since childhood, I have been stuck in many struggling, depressions and problems with my family and my life. I have seen first-hand how terrible depression, anxiety and stress can turn in an instant. It is a terrible disease. Day after day I suffered from indecisiveness and inferiority complex, could not take any right decision. I was looking for a friend who would listen to my thoughts, give me time, value my words but really I didn’t find anyone near me in that difficult time. In my family I have not found that person who will listen to my words and give me time and try to understand my issues. There were many good people around me, church pastors, mentors or counselors but no one had time to listen to my words. Maybe everyone was busy with their work and worldly. I wanted to talk to many people about my sadness and depression for peace of mind and good advice but really no one could give me their time and help me and later they didn’t even want to know about those things. So later I was angry, afraid, ashamed, thinking about my weakness and my soul respect and could not let anyone know about my depression and sadness. Everyone might have thought that I was very well, I was walking around all day, smiling – happy and joyful, but none of them understood how much mental pain and depression I was going through day after day, only I knew that.

One day I was sitting and suddenly something came in my head, I heard something like this “Jony there are many people around you who are not your friends. No one loves you, no one will ever understand you, what’s the point of living this life. I then understood. That it was the word of the Satan but how do I know then I felt that I was alone, no one loved me, an orphan, nothing could be done by me. I thought I was suicidal. I immediately fell into Satan’s trap. Because at that time I also went through family problems, and for peace of mind I became addicted to various drugs for three and a half years continuously, borrowed a lot of money from people for addiction, financial problems became my daily companion. At the same time I failed my college English finals exam, At that time my girl friend rejected me and left, and married another guy. One problem after another started coming in my life.

For these reasons I never left the house in shame, I kept myself stubborn for a while. I did not like to hear insults, insults and more. Then only one thing kept coming to my mind, what is the use of my life everyone is acting with me, they are just using me for their work. They don’t value me and my words. Everyone is ashamed, insulting, belittling me, they used to judge me only by their words. At that time I was going through a lot of sadness, depression and stress, so much stress that I can’t explain it to you in my words. Then I decided that tonight I will kill myself, then all the problems will be gone from my life. All my sadness and depression will be gone. And indeed that night I proceeded to committed suicide. Suddenly I saw my Bible lying on a bedside table. The upper part of the Bible was full of dust, then my eyes suddenly stuck to the two Bibles. Then I started to feel some kind of fear, all of a sudden tears came to my eyes, I could not understand anything, why this is happening. Then I cleaned the dust off the Bible with my hands. And then I opened my Bible and John 3:16 came to me.

It was written, “For God so loved man, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whocsoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” John 3:16 reads, “For God so loved man, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” John 3:16.

I had this verse colored in with a marker pen in my Bible. I’ve worn this item many times before and it didn’t feel like anything. But this time it seems different, the first time I read the verse I didn’t understand anything, then I read it again. Then the Holy Spirit spoke to me through that verse (John 3:16). For God so loved the Jony that he gave his one and only Son, that Jony believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16)

Immediately tears came out of my eyes, I felt as if someone was sitting next to me and put his hand on my shoulder and told me that I am your good friend. I am by your side always. JONY Suicide is not a solution. I may not be able to explain to you in my own words the moment when the Word truly spoke to me that night. I felt a lot of peace, all my anger, humiliation, helplessness, suffering, sadness, depression and frustrated went away, my whole body felt warm.

I forgot that I was going to commit suicide and I didn’t feel any pressure inside my mind anymore. Then I fell asleep without realizing it. The next day a joy began to work in my heart, I realized that God had saved me from Satan’s lies. Then from that day I decided that I would never try to commit suicide again. I slowly started to give up all the bad activities that I was involved in due to frustrated and depression. And began to spend time with God in constant reading and prayer. This is one of the biggest powerful testimonials that changed my life.

I realized that God wants me to be a good friend to the youth, teenager and children in Bangladesh. And listen to their frustrations and sorrows and give them good advice and pray for them. We can bring those who have lost hope in their lives and those who commit suicide to Jesus and tell every youth and teenager in Bangladesh that suicide is not a solution. I understand this in prayer. Then I read some articles, and watch some videos on the Internet about depression, I found some information from the World Health Organization, which states that about 280 million people in the world suffer from depression, frustrations and stress, and in the world About 7 lac people commit suicide every year. Whose age range is between 15-29 years, in the same way in another data I found about 7 lac people in Bangladesh suffer from depression, frustrations and various mental disorders, and every year about 20,000 teenagers, young men and women commit suicide in Bangladesh. The issue is constantly increasing. I found out from reading the Holy Bible that there are many things written in the Bible about depression and struggling, there are many people in the Bible who have spent time under depression, frustrations, and mental stress and We are more or less aware of the suicide of Judas, one of Jesus” 12 disciples. Then this matter became more clear in my heart. I have seen that the importance of mentoring and biblical counseling is very low in the churches of Bangladesh. It is not practiced in churches.

Then I share this topic and this vision to many people don’t take it seriously. Many laughed at me saying that I was talking like a madman, trying to do these things of my own volition, etc., etc. I was a bit disappointed by these things then. But at that time God spoke to my heart, What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?

(Romans 8:31)

But some young men and women took this very seriously, along with God they also encouraged me in this vision and with them my work began, on July 1, 2020 I spent time with a young man suffering from depression for the first time and talked about all his problems. Listen and mentoring him and pray for him. Truly God freed that young man from depression. Now about 1000 young men and women from different parts of Bangladesh, teenager, youth shared their frustrations and depression with us. Besides, young people of other faiths have shared their stories with us and we have mentored and counseled them, prayed for them and told them about the love of Jesus. Around the time we started working, the impact of Covid-19 was starting to spread across the country. All around is only fear, panic, despair, depression, lack, sickness, death. From that time until now, God has been using our WIN BANGLADESH team mightily.